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What the hell does that mean ? Well its been WELL over 100 degree's here the last few weeks. Heat and I dont get along for a few reasons , mainly it brings on my migraines. Heat and I did not use to get along becuase , well lets face it at 250 plus pounds who the hell wants to be out in that ? Lugging all that extra weight around ?
2 yrs ago I was a shut in basically . I would barely leave the house. But for SURE during the summer time, it took an act of congress to get me to leave the house in the heat of the day .
I went to the grocery store at night , IF I had to do something I was inside. I never took my kids to the pool , for out door activities, if we were invited to a party most of the time my husband would take the kids and i would stay at home.
Vacations, or out of town trips FORGET IT . My ass was NOT going.
NOW.. 2 years, 115 pounds and a lap band later ! The difference I cant even hardly explain . My son has been playing in a select touch football league ( Its a HUGE deal here in Texas ) Its called 7 on 7 . He has games every Tuesday and tourments on Saturdays. Just to give you an example of how my life has changed. This saturday they had the last qualifing tourment for state. They played 5 HOURS , thats right HOURS of football , 5 games . No big deal huh ? Except it was 112 degree's here !!
I was IN THE SHADE and STILL managed to get sun burnt!
But I was THERE . Loving every mintue of it. The team qualified to go to state.
That means they go next weekend ( the weekend after this one ) to College Station to play in the state tournment . Im SO looking forward to it. It WILL be in the heat , but I dont care. I'll be there. 2 Years ago .. I am not so sure i would have. IF I would have i would have been MISERABLE the whole time . I was sitting at a birthday party this weekend AFTER the 5 hour football marathon thinking MY GAWD how did i carry all that weight around in that heat living in Texas all those years ?
I thank goodness I had my surgery that's for sure !!
So im preparing for our trip to Aggie Land as we say here in Texas !!!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
Eating : From one extreme to another I dont know who is " luckier"
I spoke before about my SIL on here who is anorexic and would not get help.
I took the posts down because I did not want to leave them up .
Well things have gotten worse with her. My brother came home this weekend and found her nearly dead on the floor . When I say nearly dead I mean NEARLY Dead . Her body temperature was 70 , her glucose was not even registering, she had no pulse and very little breath sounds. He called 911 when EMS got there they could barely get a pulse and finally found her "breaths" .
They think what happened was her blood sugars got so low she fell and hit her head . She had been laying there for at least 6 hours. ( my brother had not been living there for a few weeks he just happen to go home to get something and found her ) She is in the ICU now and is alert and awake. But needless to say it was CLOSE.
Im very worried about my brother as well as her. That this wont kick in how serious her condition is.
This got me to thinking though. Most of us who are over weight , or became over weight to some extent have or had an eating disorder . Or over eating problem , what ever you want to call it or how ever you want to say it .
But what is "worse" over eating , not being able to control or stop your eating Or NOT wanting to eat at all ?
Food is the one thing we need, have to have in order to live ( and water ) and its the one addiction that's SO Hard to kick.
I guess in a way we are "lucky" we have a solution , lap band, RNY ect. What solution does she have ? If she does not get help she will die.
Her "issues" are in her head. She looks at herself and see's fat. Who cant relate to that ? I know i can . But instead of doing what I for instance did , burring her feelings in food , she does the opposite and just wont eat. Its a vicious cycle.
I hope she can get out of before its too late.
I took the posts down because I did not want to leave them up .
Well things have gotten worse with her. My brother came home this weekend and found her nearly dead on the floor . When I say nearly dead I mean NEARLY Dead . Her body temperature was 70 , her glucose was not even registering, she had no pulse and very little breath sounds. He called 911 when EMS got there they could barely get a pulse and finally found her "breaths" .
They think what happened was her blood sugars got so low she fell and hit her head . She had been laying there for at least 6 hours. ( my brother had not been living there for a few weeks he just happen to go home to get something and found her ) She is in the ICU now and is alert and awake. But needless to say it was CLOSE.
Im very worried about my brother as well as her. That this wont kick in how serious her condition is.
This got me to thinking though. Most of us who are over weight , or became over weight to some extent have or had an eating disorder . Or over eating problem , what ever you want to call it or how ever you want to say it .
But what is "worse" over eating , not being able to control or stop your eating Or NOT wanting to eat at all ?
Food is the one thing we need, have to have in order to live ( and water ) and its the one addiction that's SO Hard to kick.
I guess in a way we are "lucky" we have a solution , lap band, RNY ect. What solution does she have ? If she does not get help she will die.
Her "issues" are in her head. She looks at herself and see's fat. Who cant relate to that ? I know i can . But instead of doing what I for instance did , burring her feelings in food , she does the opposite and just wont eat. Its a vicious cycle.
I hope she can get out of before its too late.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Where oh Where have my boobies gone ?
My sister and I had a long day of shopping. First we hit the Victoria Secret OUTLET ( that's right OUTLET ) close to our house. LOVE it . I got some much needed new panties since mine were falling off of me. Ya know underwear is just one of those things you let go until you have to buy them. At least I do .
Anyway, the outlet did not have any bra's that i liked or fit really . OF Course not since they are $9.99 there. I got a few other things i needed.
So my sister and i decided to go to the "real" VS store in the mall since they were having their Semi Annual Sale.
I got the size I wear now .. 36C .. Yeah NOT going to work ! I asked the lady .. could you please find me A PADDED PUSH UP Bra in a size 34 B ! That's right B AS in BOY I have no BOOBS Left !! WTF !! Those damn things are gone !! GONE I TELL YA LADIES ! I have been wearing a C MOLDED cup for so long it gave me the illusion of having boobs ! NO more magic tricks here ladies !!! My ass is not the only thing getting smaller in Texas !!!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
My future ?
I dont know what to do about my future. I am in limbo i feel like.
As i wrote in a previous blog I was and still am considering going back to school to be a nutritionist , then using that degree in some way to help weight loss patients , more specifically weight loss surgery patients with the weight loss.
The only problem with that is it takes a couple years. Our financial situation needs some help NOW .
So after taking to some friends someone said " why dont you go to cosmetology school, you can get through it in less than a year and start making money right away "
I have been looking into it and its sort of a "recession proof" career.
But do i want to "waste" sort of speak a year going to school and $13,000 doing something i dont REALLY want to do or spend that time and money and go another year and be doing something I would really like to do . Now granted im a creative person , so i probably would like being a stylist .
But Im not sure what to do ?
Any thoughts on this ?
As i wrote in a previous blog I was and still am considering going back to school to be a nutritionist , then using that degree in some way to help weight loss patients , more specifically weight loss surgery patients with the weight loss.
The only problem with that is it takes a couple years. Our financial situation needs some help NOW .
So after taking to some friends someone said " why dont you go to cosmetology school, you can get through it in less than a year and start making money right away "
I have been looking into it and its sort of a "recession proof" career.
But do i want to "waste" sort of speak a year going to school and $13,000 doing something i dont REALLY want to do or spend that time and money and go another year and be doing something I would really like to do . Now granted im a creative person , so i probably would like being a stylist .
But Im not sure what to do ?
Any thoughts on this ?
Eating, grocery shopping ...
Is a struggle these days. Not because of any issues with my band but because of how my father cooks and shops. He goes to the grocery store EVERY DAY . Who does that ?
First off its MORE expensive and it just is not practical. The first few weeks he was working a lot so it was pretty well for me because i was doing the cooking.
Now its kind of " who ever asks first " does it.
He tries to please everyone in the family , i will give him that.
But Its REALLY hard to NOT eat crap when there is a BUNCH Of crap in this house.
I dont buy soda's at ALL . My kids have not had soda's except an occasional root beer here and there in nearly 2 yrs. We move in here and there is soda's every where. My oldest really does not drink them much but he has started drinking them again because they are so "available" .
Its just not how i like to or want to cook for my family or shop for them .
But I guess im stuck with it for another few months.
Things are going pretty good. My parents are being very nice .
Hubby has had my youngest in Houston all this week. So i have had some "down" time !
Its been NIIIICCCCEE !! REAL nice LOL
Anyway ... Had to give a little vent i guess today .
Thanks for listening .
First off its MORE expensive and it just is not practical. The first few weeks he was working a lot so it was pretty well for me because i was doing the cooking.
Now its kind of " who ever asks first " does it.
He tries to please everyone in the family , i will give him that.
But Its REALLY hard to NOT eat crap when there is a BUNCH Of crap in this house.
I dont buy soda's at ALL . My kids have not had soda's except an occasional root beer here and there in nearly 2 yrs. We move in here and there is soda's every where. My oldest really does not drink them much but he has started drinking them again because they are so "available" .
Its just not how i like to or want to cook for my family or shop for them .
But I guess im stuck with it for another few months.
Things are going pretty good. My parents are being very nice .
Hubby has had my youngest in Houston all this week. So i have had some "down" time !
Its been NIIIICCCCEE !! REAL nice LOL
Anyway ... Had to give a little vent i guess today .
Thanks for listening .
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Clothes Shopping Yesterday WTF ?
Fatskinnygirls post inspired me to post this about my shopping experience yesterday . I have one pair of shorts that fit me right now . The rest are either too big or too small. These last 10 pounds i need to get off to be where i need to be.
Anyway , I went to a couple places and everyone i guess thinks that everyone can wear shorts that come up the crack of your ass for one . They are SO SHORT.
So i went to target. Found some capri's I liked. I right now am in a 5/6 I grabbed a pair that size and one the next size up just in case. TOO SMALL ??? ( Scratching my head ) Ok I know its that TOM But ok.. So i grabbed a 8 TOO SMALL . WTF ???
FINALLY a 10 Fit me .. MY DEAD ASS will i put on a size 10 again !! STOP dont give me no shit about " I wish i was in a 10 " that's like those of you being in a 14 now putting on a 20 ! " Imgaine ! Of i your in a 20 wearing a 24 "
ITS NOT HAPPENING im telling ya !! So be forewarned Targets sizes are JACKED UP !! LMAO
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Swim Suit Season Stinks
I dont care what size i am , get to , become I wont like summer for one reason ... SWIM SUIT SEASON !!
Let this be a lesson to anyone out there that thinks " Your not "big" anymore be happy! Let me tell ya something... I was 110 pounds and was not comfortable with myself in a swim suite. I need a lap band for my head ! Because the weight might be off, but the apron around my stomach is still there and my wet tube socks I have for boobs are hanging around my shoulders still and I do not feel comfortable in a swim suite.
But here is my aggravation . Maybe its mean , not PC ... I dont know . I met a women in my new area who is larger. We were talking about my surgery . We went to the pool the other day . Because of my saggy thighs I had on board shorts with my swim suit top . Her response was " OH gawd take that off " or " You look great what do you have to worry about " Just because I am thinner now that I was a year ago MEANS i am comfortable with my body , comfortable in a swim suite .
But why do people assume that ? There are people at 250 pounds who are perfectly comfortable in a swim suite . And I think that is AWESOME . But guess what ?? That was NOT me .. There are people like ME who would not be caught at a pool for 3 yrs at 250 pounds because they were not comfortable with them selves at 250 pounds.
My point I guess. No matter what weight you are, you get to , you become keep in mind that there just might be someone who is uncomfortable !. Dont assume people are happy ( about their bodies) JUST BECAUSE they lost the weight.
Dont get me wrong.. I am happy with myself . But being happy with myself and putting on a swim suit in public are 2 totally different things !!!
Monday, June 8, 2009
100 Truths
Here ya go April :
100 Truths!
This was fun! Repost and come back and tell me where to find it so I can read up on all your juicy secrets.
1. Last beverage → Lemonade Vitamin Water
2. Last phone call → To my husband
3. Last text message → To my Husband LOL
4. Last song you listened to → Some Hip Hop Song on the Radio
5. Last time you cried → This weekend I think ? I was pissed off and stressed out about something .. money I am sure .
SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice? → Yes
2. Been cheated on? → Yes MANY times actually , scum bag men ! lol
3. Kissed someone? → Yes.
4. Lost someone special? → Yes
5. Been depressed? → Yes. That's what antidepressants are for LOL
6. Been drunk and threw up? → OH Gawd yes . TOO many times to count
LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Pink
2. White
3. Black
4. Blue
HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends → Cha! Yeah!
2. Fallen out of love → Yes. Im sad to say with my husband BUT i fell back in love with him !
3. Laughed until you cried → Yes!
4. Met someone who changed you → Sure
5. Found out who your true friends were → Yes.
6. Found out someone was talking about you → Yeah and NOT in just 8th grade LOL Some times people need to grow up and go BACK to 8th grade lol
7. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list → Oh .. Shit I would have to think about that one . Oh wait YES my husband is on there so YES LOL
8. How many people on your Facebook friends list do you know in real life → I would say about half
9. How many kids do you want to have → I have 2 and I am DONE
10. Do you have any pets → 2 Cats
11. Do you want to change your name → Yeah not real crazy about my married name prefer my maiden name
13. What time did you wake up today → WELL with it being summer time I would LIKE to wake up late. But its not working out that way yet. So the usual about 6 or 7 .
14. What were you doing at midnight last night → Sleeping
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → To have money again !
16. Last time you saw your father → About 10 minutes ago .
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → I wish I could have kids like RIGHT NOW! But I can be patient…I think.
18. What are you listening to right now → Some Commercial on the TV
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Yep
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → My kids not listening to me and arguing with each other.
24. Most visited webpage → My gmail.
1. What's your name? → Mindy
3. Relationship Status → married
4. Zodiac sign → Virgo
5. Male or female or transgendered → female
6. Primary School → OMG I dont remember LMAO OH wait i got it .Cunningham
7. Middle School → Covington Middle School
8. High school → Bowie High School
10. Hair color → Light Brown/ Blonde
11. Long or short → Short
16. Height → 5'4"
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → Dale Earnhart Jr LOL
18: What do you like about yourself? → Im a good mom .
19. Piercings → My ears…
20. Tattoos → 3 one on my right ankle , one on my back and one on the top of my left foot.
21. Righty or lefty → Righty.
FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → gallbladder in 01
23. First piercing → Ears, age 7.
24. First best friends → Misty age 11 still friends
26. First sport you joined → Gymnastics
27. First pet → No clue
28. First vacation → real one with Jason to Disney world on our honey moon with our son !
29. First concert → Ratt and Poison !!
30. First crush → Not sure.
RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating → Typing this long ass thing out .
50. Drinking → Vitamin water
52. I'm about to → go to bed
53. Listening to → Magic tricks reveled LOL
55. Waiting for → Hubby to come hoem from out of town .
YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? No
59. Want to get married? Done!
60. Careers in mind? I am considering going to school to be a nutritionist
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. Lips or eyes → Both.
69. Hugs or kisses → Kissies always.
70. Shorter or taller → Taller.
71. Older or Younger → Older.
72. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantically spontaneous.(ditto)
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms.Do shoulders count as arms ?LOL
74. Sensitive or loud → Both.
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
77. Trouble maker or hesitant →I would say Jason's a trouble maker !
HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → I plead the 5th on this one
79. Drank hard liquor → …a long time ago.
80. Lost glasses/contacts → no
81. Sex on first date → …See answer to 78
82. Broken someone's heart → Yeah.
83. Had your own heart broken → Yep.
85. Been arrested → Yes
86. Turned someone down → Yes
87. Cried when someone died → Yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → Humm define "LIKE"
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → Yes
90. Miracles → Sure
91. Love at first sight → Probably!
92. Heaven → No
93. Santa Clause → Yes – in the form of my husband dressed up when we have kids!
95. Kiss on the first date? → Probably.
96. Angels → …I guess!
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Not really. I like alone time sometimes!
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → Yeah LOL
99. Posting this as 100 Truths? → Sure.
100. There wasn't one -
100 Truths!
This was fun! Repost and come back and tell me where to find it so I can read up on all your juicy secrets.
1. Last beverage → Lemonade Vitamin Water
2. Last phone call → To my husband
3. Last text message → To my Husband LOL
4. Last song you listened to → Some Hip Hop Song on the Radio
5. Last time you cried → This weekend I think ? I was pissed off and stressed out about something .. money I am sure .
SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice? → Yes
2. Been cheated on? → Yes MANY times actually , scum bag men ! lol
3. Kissed someone? → Yes.
4. Lost someone special? → Yes
5. Been depressed? → Yes. That's what antidepressants are for LOL
6. Been drunk and threw up? → OH Gawd yes . TOO many times to count
LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Pink
2. White
3. Black
4. Blue
HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends → Cha! Yeah!
2. Fallen out of love → Yes. Im sad to say with my husband BUT i fell back in love with him !
3. Laughed until you cried → Yes!
4. Met someone who changed you → Sure
5. Found out who your true friends were → Yes.
6. Found out someone was talking about you → Yeah and NOT in just 8th grade LOL Some times people need to grow up and go BACK to 8th grade lol
7. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list → Oh .. Shit I would have to think about that one . Oh wait YES my husband is on there so YES LOL
8. How many people on your Facebook friends list do you know in real life → I would say about half
9. How many kids do you want to have → I have 2 and I am DONE
10. Do you have any pets → 2 Cats
11. Do you want to change your name → Yeah not real crazy about my married name prefer my maiden name
13. What time did you wake up today → WELL with it being summer time I would LIKE to wake up late. But its not working out that way yet. So the usual about 6 or 7 .
14. What were you doing at midnight last night → Sleeping
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → To have money again !
16. Last time you saw your father → About 10 minutes ago .
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → I wish I could have kids like RIGHT NOW! But I can be patient…I think.
18. What are you listening to right now → Some Commercial on the TV
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Yep
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → My kids not listening to me and arguing with each other.
24. Most visited webpage → My gmail.
1. What's your name? → Mindy
3. Relationship Status → married
4. Zodiac sign → Virgo
5. Male or female or transgendered → female
6. Primary School → OMG I dont remember LMAO OH wait i got it .Cunningham
7. Middle School → Covington Middle School
8. High school → Bowie High School
10. Hair color → Light Brown/ Blonde
11. Long or short → Short
16. Height → 5'4"
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → Dale Earnhart Jr LOL
18: What do you like about yourself? → Im a good mom .
19. Piercings → My ears…
20. Tattoos → 3 one on my right ankle , one on my back and one on the top of my left foot.
21. Righty or lefty → Righty.
FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → gallbladder in 01
23. First piercing → Ears, age 7.
24. First best friends → Misty age 11 still friends
26. First sport you joined → Gymnastics
27. First pet → No clue
28. First vacation → real one with Jason to Disney world on our honey moon with our son !
29. First concert → Ratt and Poison !!
30. First crush → Not sure.
RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating → Typing this long ass thing out .
50. Drinking → Vitamin water
52. I'm about to → go to bed
53. Listening to → Magic tricks reveled LOL
55. Waiting for → Hubby to come hoem from out of town .
YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? No
59. Want to get married? Done!
60. Careers in mind? I am considering going to school to be a nutritionist
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. Lips or eyes → Both.
69. Hugs or kisses → Kissies always.
70. Shorter or taller → Taller.
71. Older or Younger → Older.
72. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantically spontaneous.(ditto)
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms.Do shoulders count as arms ?LOL
74. Sensitive or loud → Both.
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
77. Trouble maker or hesitant →I would say Jason's a trouble maker !
HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → I plead the 5th on this one
79. Drank hard liquor → …a long time ago.
80. Lost glasses/contacts → no
81. Sex on first date → …See answer to 78
82. Broken someone's heart → Yeah.
83. Had your own heart broken → Yep.
85. Been arrested → Yes
86. Turned someone down → Yes
87. Cried when someone died → Yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → Humm define "LIKE"
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → Yes
90. Miracles → Sure
91. Love at first sight → Probably!
92. Heaven → No
93. Santa Clause → Yes – in the form of my husband dressed up when we have kids!
95. Kiss on the first date? → Probably.
96. Angels → …I guess!
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Not really. I like alone time sometimes!
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → Yeah LOL
99. Posting this as 100 Truths? → Sure.
100. There wasn't one -
This biggest difference between being 250 and 140ish...
Living in Texas and the summers !! OMG The heat ya'll . At 250 I was such a shut in and literally waited until the sun went down to go to the store or to do just about anything. It was so hot as it is , but adding an extra 100 plus pounds to lug around on top of that ! NOW with that weight off... I dont mind being out side if I need to . Its still hotter than all get out . BUT Its do able.
I can go to the store and not float in my car like a pool from the sweat when im done ! Its do able. My migraines I THINK are a little better too since my weight has come off. Granted im on meds for them as well. But the weight has helped in the summer no doubt !
Less strain on blood vessels i think ?
So what is your " Big difference between your starting weight and now "
Does not matter what weight your at ..
I can go to the store and not float in my car like a pool from the sweat when im done ! Its do able. My migraines I THINK are a little better too since my weight has come off. Granted im on meds for them as well. But the weight has helped in the summer no doubt !
Less strain on blood vessels i think ?
So what is your " Big difference between your starting weight and now "
Does not matter what weight your at ..
RePost: FOLLOW Docs Orders
Let me start by saying this orginally was posted from reading something on a message board. So please dont tell me i was being bitchy . LOL well ok i was . BUT This CANT Be more important of an issue to me NOW after slipping my band ! If i had not waited to see my doc ( Followed his advice and my own It would never have happened ) . So shame on me ! LOL
This is a bit of a hot button issue for me. Since i believe that following docs orders is Essential in the success of your band .
There are a few things that I think are THE MOST Important things you can do to ensure the safety and longevity of your band .
#1 on that list of MINE ( remember just my opinon based on what i have done and what has gotten me this far to this point)
Following your docs advice during the 6 week post op diet !!!
what does that mean to me ?
It means
1. Do NOT Advance your diet with OUT speaking to your doc first.
Look we all KNOW how hard it is to go for weeks at at time w/ liquids, especially those who were on liquid diets pre op . BUT The pre op diet is there for a reason . that reason ?
The reason your docs do not want you to eat for a certain amount of time (NOT MY OPINION this is fact ) is to allow your stomach to heal, form scar tissue around the band in order for your band to anchor itself . There for allowing the best possible life and longevity of your band. = A better chance you will not slip !!
I hear " Im listening to my body and its telling me to eat !OF COURSE it is .
If you are listening to your body and its telling you to eat, your feeling ill what ever and you FEEL you HAVE TO eat something, move to protein shakes, CALL YOUR DOC . MOST docs will allow you to move on to something else or add something to your diet. BUT GET THEIR PERMISSION FIRST . I think this is important for 2 reasons.
A. So that the docs KNOWS you advanced the diet
B. If your having any issues the docs knows about that , and if issues come up down the road the doc knows the diet was advanced and has that info on hand .
I also hear " Well I advanced my diet early you will be fine " Or " Just chew chew chew "
REALLY !! Again there is a reason for the diet, its to make sure your stomach does not start "working" too soon . And giving someone else permission , validation , reason to do the same because someone else "Cheated" Is wrong just wrong.
Ive been accused of being mean, rude, tough love because of how strongly i feel about this .
SORRY Its just how i feel. I Believe POST OP DIET ( meaning during the first 6 wk healing phase after surgery ) Should NOT be advanced on your own !! PERIOD !!
NOW THAT being said. AFTER your on solids per your doc instructions does that mean I dont eat stuff i should not ? Well that depends on how you look at things !
I eat what i want when i want. I am not on a diet now nor will i ever be again . That's why i got the band to start with .
95 % of the time I eat VERY Healthy . TONS Of Veggies , Lots of protein , still probably need to work on getting more water. That being said. When I want something sweet , i eat it .
BUT I do not eat sweets often . a few times a month at most.
Do I feel guilty for it when i do . ABSOLUTELY NOT . DO i realize not everyone can do this . YES My point . After you have healed I do not even consider it "cheating" its just a slip , we all slip , move past it move on , and the next hour is a new day .
But do not look for much sympathy from me if your cheating on your post op diet, . Will I continue to give ANYONE who needs support support. YOU BET !! I am not perfect, do not claim to be , do not want to be.
I am on message boards like www.lapbandtalk.com to help , pay it forward if you will.
Those who were banded before me helped me in my times of need ( Still do ) And i would like to do the same.
But my philosophy with my friends , online or off is this :
IT DOES NO GOOD TO TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR , I WILL TELL YOU WHAT YOU NEED TO HEAR !!! real friends in my opinion will do that .
Do i say things the wrong way sometimes ? YES , Im sure i do . I do not mean to . I do .
Anyway that's my issue for the day !!!
LOVE EVERYONE !!!
This is a bit of a hot button issue for me. Since i believe that following docs orders is Essential in the success of your band .
There are a few things that I think are THE MOST Important things you can do to ensure the safety and longevity of your band .
#1 on that list of MINE ( remember just my opinon based on what i have done and what has gotten me this far to this point)
Following your docs advice during the 6 week post op diet !!!
what does that mean to me ?
It means
1. Do NOT Advance your diet with OUT speaking to your doc first.
Look we all KNOW how hard it is to go for weeks at at time w/ liquids, especially those who were on liquid diets pre op . BUT The pre op diet is there for a reason . that reason ?
The reason your docs do not want you to eat for a certain amount of time (NOT MY OPINION this is fact ) is to allow your stomach to heal, form scar tissue around the band in order for your band to anchor itself . There for allowing the best possible life and longevity of your band. = A better chance you will not slip !!
I hear " Im listening to my body and its telling me to eat !OF COURSE it is .
If you are listening to your body and its telling you to eat, your feeling ill what ever and you FEEL you HAVE TO eat something, move to protein shakes, CALL YOUR DOC . MOST docs will allow you to move on to something else or add something to your diet. BUT GET THEIR PERMISSION FIRST . I think this is important for 2 reasons.
A. So that the docs KNOWS you advanced the diet
B. If your having any issues the docs knows about that , and if issues come up down the road the doc knows the diet was advanced and has that info on hand .
I also hear " Well I advanced my diet early you will be fine " Or " Just chew chew chew "
REALLY !! Again there is a reason for the diet, its to make sure your stomach does not start "working" too soon . And giving someone else permission , validation , reason to do the same because someone else "Cheated" Is wrong just wrong.
Ive been accused of being mean, rude, tough love because of how strongly i feel about this .
SORRY Its just how i feel. I Believe POST OP DIET ( meaning during the first 6 wk healing phase after surgery ) Should NOT be advanced on your own !! PERIOD !!
NOW THAT being said. AFTER your on solids per your doc instructions does that mean I dont eat stuff i should not ? Well that depends on how you look at things !
I eat what i want when i want. I am not on a diet now nor will i ever be again . That's why i got the band to start with .
95 % of the time I eat VERY Healthy . TONS Of Veggies , Lots of protein , still probably need to work on getting more water. That being said. When I want something sweet , i eat it .
BUT I do not eat sweets often . a few times a month at most.
Do I feel guilty for it when i do . ABSOLUTELY NOT . DO i realize not everyone can do this . YES My point . After you have healed I do not even consider it "cheating" its just a slip , we all slip , move past it move on , and the next hour is a new day .
But do not look for much sympathy from me if your cheating on your post op diet, . Will I continue to give ANYONE who needs support support. YOU BET !! I am not perfect, do not claim to be , do not want to be.
I am on message boards like www.lapbandtalk.com to help , pay it forward if you will.
Those who were banded before me helped me in my times of need ( Still do ) And i would like to do the same.
But my philosophy with my friends , online or off is this :
IT DOES NO GOOD TO TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR , I WILL TELL YOU WHAT YOU NEED TO HEAR !!! real friends in my opinion will do that .
Do i say things the wrong way sometimes ? YES , Im sure i do . I do not mean to . I do .
Anyway that's my issue for the day !!!
LOVE EVERYONE !!!
RePost: Fills, Unfills and Total Unfills
Fills, unfills and total unfills
Fills: Fills are a BREEZE !! Nothing to it . My doc does not even numb me w/ numbing meds .
I no longer have them done under flouroscopy ( XRay ) because he can feel my port under my skin well enough that i do them in the office now . When I was heavier he did them under Flouro to make sure he hit the port. Some people do not like that much , but I do , Its like a mini check up for your band every fill .
Unfills: I have had probably about the same amount of unfills as i have fills. Why ?
I am VERY Sensitive to fills. I am very sensitive to everything apparantly .
If i PB too "hard" I swell quite a bit , it takes longer for me to heal than "normal" and i usually end up w/ a slight unfill.
The upside to this is I also am VERY Sensitive to fills. So a very small fills affects me a lot .
We think this has to do w/ yrs of throwing up from migraines.
But unfills do not have to be feared. Unfills generally put you back to where you "Should have been" to start w/ at your fill level .
So do not stay tight too long you risk your band slipping or causing damage.
I do not like to stay tight and wont stay tight long.
TOTAL UNFILL: I had a total unfill on 6-10-08 due to PBing really bad one time and getting very swollen , I ending up not being able to keep liquids down . So doc wanted me to heal so he totally unfilled me .
Let me give ya'll some advice .. If you have to get a TOTAL unfill do NOT do what my dumb ass has done and eat like HELL . I have gained 8lbs since my unfill LESS Than 2 months ago and MAN is it not a good feeling. I have done it to myself . I could have gotten filled nearly a month before I did , because i was going on vacation I decided to stay unfilled while on vacation so i could eat what ever the hell i wanted.
NOT SMART !!!
So the moral of the story if you have to get totally unfilled be smart about what you eat , dont go nuts like i did . Now instead of 25 or so pounds to goal im nearly 35 !!!
UGHHH . SMART Mindy REAL FREAKING SMART! I have my fill on Thursday THANK GOD . Because what people do not know is when you get TOTALLY Unfilled. YOu can eat like you do not have a band anymore.
At least I can and THAT MY FRIENDS is a SCARY FEELING !!!
Fills: Fills are a BREEZE !! Nothing to it . My doc does not even numb me w/ numbing meds .
I no longer have them done under flouroscopy ( XRay ) because he can feel my port under my skin well enough that i do them in the office now . When I was heavier he did them under Flouro to make sure he hit the port. Some people do not like that much , but I do , Its like a mini check up for your band every fill .
Unfills: I have had probably about the same amount of unfills as i have fills. Why ?
I am VERY Sensitive to fills. I am very sensitive to everything apparantly .
If i PB too "hard" I swell quite a bit , it takes longer for me to heal than "normal" and i usually end up w/ a slight unfill.
The upside to this is I also am VERY Sensitive to fills. So a very small fills affects me a lot .
We think this has to do w/ yrs of throwing up from migraines.
But unfills do not have to be feared. Unfills generally put you back to where you "Should have been" to start w/ at your fill level .
So do not stay tight too long you risk your band slipping or causing damage.
I do not like to stay tight and wont stay tight long.
TOTAL UNFILL: I had a total unfill on 6-10-08 due to PBing really bad one time and getting very swollen , I ending up not being able to keep liquids down . So doc wanted me to heal so he totally unfilled me .
Let me give ya'll some advice .. If you have to get a TOTAL unfill do NOT do what my dumb ass has done and eat like HELL . I have gained 8lbs since my unfill LESS Than 2 months ago and MAN is it not a good feeling. I have done it to myself . I could have gotten filled nearly a month before I did , because i was going on vacation I decided to stay unfilled while on vacation so i could eat what ever the hell i wanted.
NOT SMART !!!
So the moral of the story if you have to get totally unfilled be smart about what you eat , dont go nuts like i did . Now instead of 25 or so pounds to goal im nearly 35 !!!
UGHHH . SMART Mindy REAL FREAKING SMART! I have my fill on Thursday THANK GOD . Because what people do not know is when you get TOTALLY Unfilled. YOu can eat like you do not have a band anymore.
At least I can and THAT MY FRIENDS is a SCARY FEELING !!!
RePost: Expectations of Surgery !
When I started looking into WLS and Lap Band Surgery I was also talking to my OB about the PCOS . I had a major concern that the PCOS would keep me from losing weight . I mean it made sense right ? I could not lose weight with OUT the band why would it be possible to lose it WITH the band ? The PCOS is still there . One of the things that my OB told me is , " you will lose weight with the band but you will most likely lose it SLOWLY because of the PCOS " . Ok I was cool w/ that . It took me years to get the weight on im good if it takes years to get it off.
I Have since had some friends who have had WLS , made friends who have had WLS ect since I had surgery and I notice them getting frustrated when the weight is not coming off "fast" enough or Soon enough . This was something that never happened to me . I know your thinking "SURE because you lost fast Bitch " LOL But honestly , I was not expecting anything going into this other than to JUST LOSE.
So I think the #1 thing I would tell ANYONE going into any WLS is to not expect ANYTHING !
Do not expect to lose weight at a certain pace, do not expect to lose like someone you know, Someone else who had surgery the same day as you ect. It does nothing but set you up for frustration , failure and upset. So there is no point !!
Why do that to yourself ? I think its just better to take things as they come . Be content w/ who you are and how your weight comes off. Make some mini goals for yourself and achieve those one at a time !!
I Have since had some friends who have had WLS , made friends who have had WLS ect since I had surgery and I notice them getting frustrated when the weight is not coming off "fast" enough or Soon enough . This was something that never happened to me . I know your thinking "SURE because you lost fast Bitch " LOL But honestly , I was not expecting anything going into this other than to JUST LOSE.
So I think the #1 thing I would tell ANYONE going into any WLS is to not expect ANYTHING !
Do not expect to lose weight at a certain pace, do not expect to lose like someone you know, Someone else who had surgery the same day as you ect. It does nothing but set you up for frustration , failure and upset. So there is no point !!
Why do that to yourself ? I think its just better to take things as they come . Be content w/ who you are and how your weight comes off. Make some mini goals for yourself and achieve those one at a time !!
Important Points to Remind us all Of ?
I think after we all have our band for a while 6months to a year we tend to forget a few things. I see some frustration going on in some people's bloggs as I have been catching up . And in myself in all honesty too. So I thought maybe I would re post some older posts and it might help some , my self included to knock some sense into us and remind us of a few things .
1. Why we started this journey .
2. This is a martathon not a sprint.
3. Look how far we have all come. Regardless of how long we have had our bands.
4. MOST IMPORTANT ... FOLLOW YOUR DOCTORS ORDERS ! Remember the RULES ! Dont get lazy with them !!! Getting lazy causes stupid shit to happen like slipped bands !! ( trust me i know LOL )
1. Why we started this journey .
2. This is a martathon not a sprint.
3. Look how far we have all come. Regardless of how long we have had our bands.
4. MOST IMPORTANT ... FOLLOW YOUR DOCTORS ORDERS ! Remember the RULES ! Dont get lazy with them !!! Getting lazy causes stupid shit to happen like slipped bands !! ( trust me i know LOL )
Tip of the Day : Eating Well For Less
It has been a long time since i have done one of these . LOL
So one thing ya'll might know about me is I am the CHEAPEST person in the world.
If i dont have to pay full price for something I wont. I will do what ever it takes to figure out a way to NOT pay full price.
One of my guilty pleasures since losing weight is designer jeans. However I will not pay $200 and up for them . Second hand stores are my FAVORITE for this ...
Which leads me to the tip of the day .
With the economy the way it is eating well can be a challange. Lets face it eating healthy is expensive. So my trick the BIGGEST One ...
COUPONS ! I am a COUPON Fanatic. Someone told me once " I dont have time for coupons' My response to them was " Then you dont have time to save money "
I spend 30 mintues a Sunday clipping them and organizing them and that's it.
And can save as much as $50-100 at the grocery store. Not to mention the FREE stuff i get.
This is one of my favorite sites. She has a really good explianation of how to orgainzie coupons, how to utilize CVS's extra care bucks to get stuff for free ( which i do every week )
Its great !
http://www.frugalcouponliving.com/
Also another tip .. Stay on the outer isles of the grocery store. The produce , meat, dairy sections are the healthiest places to shop. The least you buy on the inner isles the better.
Hope that is helpful !
So one thing ya'll might know about me is I am the CHEAPEST person in the world.
If i dont have to pay full price for something I wont. I will do what ever it takes to figure out a way to NOT pay full price.
One of my guilty pleasures since losing weight is designer jeans. However I will not pay $200 and up for them . Second hand stores are my FAVORITE for this ...
Which leads me to the tip of the day .
With the economy the way it is eating well can be a challange. Lets face it eating healthy is expensive. So my trick the BIGGEST One ...
COUPONS ! I am a COUPON Fanatic. Someone told me once " I dont have time for coupons' My response to them was " Then you dont have time to save money "
I spend 30 mintues a Sunday clipping them and organizing them and that's it.
And can save as much as $50-100 at the grocery store. Not to mention the FREE stuff i get.
This is one of my favorite sites. She has a really good explianation of how to orgainzie coupons, how to utilize CVS's extra care bucks to get stuff for free ( which i do every week )
Its great !
http://www.frugalcouponliving.com/
Also another tip .. Stay on the outer isles of the grocery store. The produce , meat, dairy sections are the healthiest places to shop. The least you buy on the inner isles the better.
Hope that is helpful !
Ok So what's been going on . The Short of it is ..
As i said we finally got moved in . Its been stressful .
Its stressful living with my parents. Let me let you get a mental picture of this set up of an "Apartment" LOL . ( Actually i will probably take a picture later ) Above their garage they have a room , it has enough room for a queen size bed, computer desk, futon and a chair. THAT is where I am living with my youngest son . My oledest son is staying down stairs in their extra room. So my younests and I have to come down stairs for the bathroom and to eat.
When Jason is in town ( hubby) he's up stairs with us too.
Now my dad loves to cook, and normally is home early from work or works when he wants ( he has his own company ) But because of the job he has going on he's working 12 hour shifts. Im not the biggest fan of his cooking. He does not use hardly any fresh veggies , just does not cook the way I do .
SO I told my mom , can I cook if you know dad wont be home. Was not sure if he would appreciate that or not. All last week dinner was ready when both of them got home from work. Not only did mom like it ( she's trying to lose weight so she likes my healthy cooking ) dad seemed to really appreciate it .
My mom would rather have my whole wheat pastas, breads, ect.
So things SO FAR are ok.
My dad has a bad habit of bringing home crap to eat. Donuts, cakes, ect.
So im having to watch it. Im still been able to maintain 140 pretty easily . But I am not comfortable with 140 as a "goal" , "final" , Im done number for me. I would be much happier with 130 I think. Someone who found my blog is suppose to have surgery with my surgergeon next week I believe , after that I get 2 free fills for a referal . So I will go get a slight fill and try to lose these last 10 pounds AGAIN !I swear these last 10 pounds are the death of me.
Im also thinking MAYBE i just need to get off my ass and just start walking, working out , doing something and I can get these last 10 pounds off like that and maintain it . I like the way I am eating now. Its not a lot , its a little more than "usual" but its good. So we'll see what i decide.
Cant tell ya'll how good it is to be back and be able to spend time on here and catch up on everyone's bloggs !
Its stressful living with my parents. Let me let you get a mental picture of this set up of an "Apartment" LOL . ( Actually i will probably take a picture later ) Above their garage they have a room , it has enough room for a queen size bed, computer desk, futon and a chair. THAT is where I am living with my youngest son . My oledest son is staying down stairs in their extra room. So my younests and I have to come down stairs for the bathroom and to eat.
When Jason is in town ( hubby) he's up stairs with us too.
Now my dad loves to cook, and normally is home early from work or works when he wants ( he has his own company ) But because of the job he has going on he's working 12 hour shifts. Im not the biggest fan of his cooking. He does not use hardly any fresh veggies , just does not cook the way I do .
SO I told my mom , can I cook if you know dad wont be home. Was not sure if he would appreciate that or not. All last week dinner was ready when both of them got home from work. Not only did mom like it ( she's trying to lose weight so she likes my healthy cooking ) dad seemed to really appreciate it .
My mom would rather have my whole wheat pastas, breads, ect.
So things SO FAR are ok.
My dad has a bad habit of bringing home crap to eat. Donuts, cakes, ect.
So im having to watch it. Im still been able to maintain 140 pretty easily . But I am not comfortable with 140 as a "goal" , "final" , Im done number for me. I would be much happier with 130 I think. Someone who found my blog is suppose to have surgery with my surgergeon next week I believe , after that I get 2 free fills for a referal . So I will go get a slight fill and try to lose these last 10 pounds AGAIN !I swear these last 10 pounds are the death of me.
Im also thinking MAYBE i just need to get off my ass and just start walking, working out , doing something and I can get these last 10 pounds off like that and maintain it . I like the way I am eating now. Its not a lot , its a little more than "usual" but its good. So we'll see what i decide.
Cant tell ya'll how good it is to be back and be able to spend time on here and catch up on everyone's bloggs !
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Thank GAWD
Im ALIVE !! I now have internet access all my own !! My mom and I drilled a whole in the walls today to give me internet access up in my apartment at my moms ! So im connected again ya'll !!
SO excited ! I am not sure what to do with myself !
SO excited ! I am not sure what to do with myself !
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
WHEWWW
Ok I am done with the never ending FREAKING MOVE !! MY GAWD ! This move I swear was never going to end ! It took FOREVER it seemed like. Now I have to figure out how to fit all my CRAP in basically 2 rooms at my mom's house ! Yeah that's FUN !!! NOT !
BUT at least I have INTERNET NOW ! Im telling ya'll. Take my cable, Take my phone ( Ok maybe not the phone ) take what ever BUT NOT THE NET !! LOL
Im still barely maintaining at 140 I stepped on my mom's scale the other day and it went to 150 for a SECOND and I about shit ! Seriously about robbed somemone for fill money !! My mom said she thought i was going to have a heart attack ! I told her " 140 IM Good with not great but good. I go over that ITS Panic time ya'll " !
So a few more weeks i should be able to go get a fill to get these last 5 or 10 pounds off AGAIN !! I have 2 pairs of shorts that fit me that i keep wearing over and over again . So need to get some weight off. Well then i wont have ANYTHING to wear LOL
Anyway , will up date later !! Thanks for all your support. I look forward to catching up on everyone now !
BUT at least I have INTERNET NOW ! Im telling ya'll. Take my cable, Take my phone ( Ok maybe not the phone ) take what ever BUT NOT THE NET !! LOL
Im still barely maintaining at 140 I stepped on my mom's scale the other day and it went to 150 for a SECOND and I about shit ! Seriously about robbed somemone for fill money !! My mom said she thought i was going to have a heart attack ! I told her " 140 IM Good with not great but good. I go over that ITS Panic time ya'll " !
So a few more weeks i should be able to go get a fill to get these last 5 or 10 pounds off AGAIN !! I have 2 pairs of shorts that fit me that i keep wearing over and over again . So need to get some weight off. Well then i wont have ANYTHING to wear LOL
Anyway , will up date later !! Thanks for all your support. I look forward to catching up on everyone now !
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