We found a kitty !

We went looking yesterday and found a new kitten !
As you might remember our old kitty Angel died a few weeks ago and my youngest son has just been itching for another one !
So we found the CUTEST kitten yesterday at the shelter. We go back for her on Monday !
She's nearly all black !!! They said she's an asian cat but i think she's part Burmese ! I'll post a pic when we get her ! She's 4 months old. Her name now is Precious but we changed it to Asia

My Tatoo

Some ladies on another blog were talking about tatoo's they got recently so I told them show me yours and i'll show ya mine !! SO here is mine.
This is the first part of it. I had it put on at 50 lbs lost. This is my "lap band tatoo"

From Weight Loss

This is it after 75 pds lost. Everything Not on the branch was added.
As soon as im at goal ( seems like never at this point) I will add an oriental butterfly w/ my kids names in the wings.

Mindy

Issues again ?

I hope im not heading towards another unfill. I think i will be on liquids for quite some time . All of a sudden my band is tight again .
I had an episode of PBing that was not fun not too long ago . thought i was OK and ate now I might be in a cycle. So Im having to watch it.
Im drinking hot chocolate right now to try and open my band up so liquids go down a little better. they are going town but i can feel them. So im going to stay on liquids through the end of the week at least. Which means no turkey day dinner, maybe some potatoes if I feel ok that day .
Not sure why i do this ? I will be ok for quite some time after fills then this happens.
Its so odd.
Also this is something interesting. Before my total unfill if i got stuck it was coming back up no if ands or butts about it . I could NOT stop myself from puking.
(sorry TMI )
It has been part of my issues w/ my band being so sensitive to fills.
NOW after this refill after being unfills If i get stuck I actually get stuck .
I can be stuck for hours now . its very strange how all of a sudden that kicked in .
Im actually not complaining about it , I would rather it do that then throw up all the time , I risk slipping my band by throwing up all the time.
But i find it interesting after over a yr my "stuck" button all of a sudden works.

Cheater Cheater Pumpkin Eater

HA gotacha thought i was going to talk about food huh ?
NOPE not this one. Ok if any guys read this ( and i dont think they do ) I just have to say SORRY now . Because I am going to say right now that ya'll are some scum sucking bastards ya know that ?
Really ? Why do people, men get married if they are going to cheat ?
NO NO NO Its not MY HUSBAND , I'll cut his Jimmy off if he does.
But in the last MONTH ( probably less than that ) I have had 3 of my friends husbands cheat on them . SERIOUSLY ! NO SHIT ! What the HELL ? Get a divorce you " I want to have my cake and eat it too low life scum suckers "
And ANY woman who would have an affair w/ a married man WELL I dont think I should post the word for them on here !

I told my husband when we got married " I got 2 deal breakers I WONT Tolerate you EVER Hitting me and You cheat on me ONCE it will be the LAST TIME cause i wont give you another chance ! "
I honestly think once you cheat the trust is broken and I dont think you can ever really get that back . I have had boyfriends cheat on me , Actually every one I ever had w/ the exception of ONE and my husband .
And its NOT a good feeling and something I wont put myself through if I can help it.

SO My point. What the HELL IS Wrong w/ People.
It really makes me wonder, get paranoid sometimes. I wonder if MY Husband WOULD ever do it. Some of these men who have cheated " OK DAH No shit he's cheating" But some I was floored ! My DH would be one everyone would be FLOORED.

I just dont get it !

Up and Down up and Down

Here I go again , up and down up and down . You would think by now i would learn to get off my ASS and work out ? But NOOOOO Mindy's a dumb ass .
I get down to 143 last week , the lowest I have been since surgery . I weight today im 145 , I KNOW I KNOW Your thinking BIG DEAL Mindy 2 lbs. But I cant seem to get out of the 140's ! I am beginning to wonder IF my body WANTS out of the 140's .
Originally 140 was my goal . Then my doc said " Yeah i dont think so . Your still over weight at 140 " (can you believe THAT Crap !) So we changed it to 125 Although i would be happy with 130-135 . But last week when i got to 143 I could TASTE 139 so badly.

I HAVE GOT TO GOT MOVE IT ! At least get out and walk or im not ever going to get these last 20 or so pounds off.
GEESH !!!! this is BEYOND frustrating I go for a YEAR and not hit ONE PLATUEA then with the end in site I hit a BIG One . SCREW THIS !!!

Low Tolerance ?

Disclaimer ( This is not about any one particular person and no one that reads this blog )
For BULLSHIT ? Ok So im a little annoyed right now . Not really at any one person , really a few people . Im in need of a desperate break right now, I had a very bad day . Had a shitty week last week w/ my kitty cat dying.
A little background in case you dont know ... My husband is working out of town , he comes home when he can , usually once a week or so . The last 2 weeks he's been home 2 days. So between the cat situation , every day life shit and kids ect I have had it , I just need a break. My youngest son is a great kid, very smart, BUT he's very high maintenance . I think he's like me and can be a little OCD he gets something in his head and does not shut up about it until its done or knows when its going to be done. So I need a break , as much as I love him I need a break !
So today some things just irritated the SHIT out of me and I thought i would share them . (So glad i started this blogging thing its very useful in many ways LOL )
I have a very low tolerance for a few things. And I mean a VERY low tolerance for a few things.
1. Weak people. More specifically weak helpless women .
2. People who complain ALL THE FREAKING TIME
3. People who do not want to help themselves .
4. LIARS and Back Stabbers

So I know some people who basically complain all the damn time about their issues, yet do not want to help themselves, are weak , cant do anything for themselves you know the "poor pitiful me Shit " . I complain , I need help sometimes, everyone does. Im not talking about that. Im talking about EVERY FREAKING time you talk to someone their is something freaking wrong w/ them. They are sick, they dont feel good, they are tired ect ect. You know the question " so how are you today ? " SOMETIMES JUST SAY FINE HOW THE HELL ARE YOU ? " I Dont want to hear that you have not SHIT IN 4 freaking days !!!!!
SERIOUSLY !!! I love my friends, I will do anything for them , they all know that. But come on !
Like i said before none of them read my blog so I can bitch here in secret LOL

Also , my BIG BIG BIG pet peeve is back stabbers. I am someone who will do anything for anyone . I am loyal to my friends. So dont be a 2 faced bitch and stab me in the back by betraying me or my confidence , especially when there is no damn reason for it just because you are a combo of ALL 4 of my peeves above !!!!

can you tell i have had a bad day ?
Shit, i have had a bad week or 2 . But I really needed to vent !!!!
Feel free to leave comments that I am being a bitch ! I can take it !!!

Update on Angel Our Kitty

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Last Tuesday
I walked into my bed Room and Angel our cat was next to my bed sitting in a pool of blood. It was coming from her neck.
The tumor in her neck had either ruptured or she tried to get it at it and punctured a whole in her neck .
There was blood all over my bed room , it was BAD ya'll.
My youngest walked in and saw it and FREAKED .
I called my dad over , and he said " I think she is ok she seems like she's not in pain"
And she did seem ok. I thought maybe the release of pressure made her feel better ?
After a while she started having problems it seemed.
I took her into the Emergency Vet and they said they did not think she was in pain , a little uncomfortable but not in pain .
I was going to put her to sleep last night but it was so expensive at the emergency place and they said she was not in pain .
So i decided to wait and see how she was in the am.
The wound is still oozing , So i took her in at 10 am and and she was put to sleep .
But I felt if I waited any longer she would get worse or be in pain . It was one of the worst things I have ever had to do ! We buried her in my parents back yard , so that my youngest can go talk to her when ever he wants, It was important for him to be able to do that.
I wanted to update the situation since I had not been able to .

Finally Scale is Rocking again

Finally my scale is rocking and rolling again !
I had my fill on 11-6-08 and im down 7 pds since then !! Im 18 lbs to goal now !
Thank GOODNESS ! I just hope I can keep this up and it keeps going down , no more ups and downs like before.
I am eating well again , not having any issues .
I think the stress of DH working out of town has settled in , Oldest son's football season is over and things are settled down enough I can just relax and focus on getting these last pounds off.
Only Bad part is the Holidays are coming up . BUT that's ok .

Sad News Today

I am DEVASTATED ya'll . I am not a "animal " person , not ever been much of one. But
I took my older "fatty catty" Angel to the vet today , she had this goo coming out of her eyes.
So i figured it was allergies or something. No biggie, take her to the vet , get some eye drops and we are done.
I was NOT Prepared for what they said.
She has cancer . The goo coming out of her eyes is most likely fluid being pushed out of the tumor in her throat , being pushed out of her sinus cavities ! The cancer is in her throat and its pushing her tongue to the side and its probably many many other places too . They said they can run a ton of tests( money i dont have to do that with )
But even doing that there really is not much they can do or would do . She would be in too much pain just from the treatment !
She's old ( 14) . SO really our only option is to put her down now , before she gets into more pain ( She is probably in some now but not a lot ) or wait until she starts being able to not eat ( She already cant eat dry food now ) .
Im so upset. My 7 yr old is a MESS, He cant stop crying and he cant even Look at Angel w/ out crying. He's asking me things about graves for a cat , if we can get one for her.
OH Its horrible !!!

Scales a Moving

Again , thank GOODNESS!
I am down 3lbs since my fill on Thursday , Probably more than that since i just got over my TOM !
So If i can get below 145 and STAY THERE for a while im going to be happy !!!

I want these last 20 lbs off and NOW !!!

For Newbies STOP IT

This is for my friend Julie, She inspired me to write this ...
I want to say this ... For all you newbies, and maybe not so newbies with lap bands . I have some advice for you that I think is very important, espically early on.
Since most of us are on www.lapbandtalk.com or know of it there are SO many people there.
So many different little " groups" to be in ect.
A big thing on there is to be on a group that was banded the same day, week , month ect as you were. As MUCH as I LOVE Lapbandtalk... let me give ya'll some advice. STAY AWAY FROM THOSE GROUPS or any other that will make you COMPARE yourself to ANYONE ELSE when it comes to weight loss.
They can be TOXIC for you . Why ? Let me give ya some reasons :
1. Weight loss in itself is so sparatic , everyone loses at a different pace
2. Add the BAND to it and it can either speed it up or slow it down
3. you are setting your self up to FAIL or at the VERY least be VERY VERY Dissapointed if you are going to compare yourself to someone else.
4. Be Happy . With what ? Losing. How much ? Just losing .

This is the thing , If your LOSING the band is working. If your LOSING your doing it right , if your LOSING your working the tool you got and for the reason you got it for.
If your LOSING YOU ARE SUCCEEDING !!!

If your losing 1-3 pds a week YOUR DOING FINE !! If you skip a week and do not lose , great your fine.
STOP COMPARING YOURSELF TO SOMEONE ELSE YOU HAVE NO CONTROL OVER !
YOU have control over YOU , yourself and how YOU work YOUR BAND !!
I do not mean this in a mean, cruel way at ALL , I really do mean this nicely and want to help .

If you start to feel like " OH IM not losing enough " take the total # of weeks since your surgery and divide it by the amount of weight you have lost. If it Averages between 1-3 pds a WEEK your doing JUST FINE. IF not and its a little low , then see what you need to do to get it up a little .

STOP BEATING YOURSEVES UP because someone else lost more weight ONE WEEK than you did !!!!

EXPECT ONE THING FROM THE LAP BAND ... EXPECT TO LOSE , THAT'S IT JUST LOSE !

Love
Mindy

Oink Oink goes the Piggie !

I am going for another fill today . I HOPE this helps get this weight off again . I have been losing and gaining the same 5 pds for what feels like months.
I am SO CLOSE TO my goal I can taste it but it wont come off !!!
Last night at Chili's after my son's football game , I ate an ENTIRE Beef, Chicken and Shrimp Fajita plate ( NO tortillas ) AND the Veggies ! ALL OF IT . I freaked . I was like OMG are you kidding me. I mean it was not the WORST Choice , protein and veggies. But GEEZ that's a LOT OF FOOD !!! I think there were 6 shrimp alone !.
Can you say OINK !

Get your ass out and VOTE

Election day is tomorrow . I dont care who you vote for but get out and VOTE !
I will be honest w/ you and say this was my first election i vote in this yr. It was the first yr i felt compelled to vote. So VOTE then i'll tell ya tomorrow if i am happy or not !! I voted in early voting !
GO MOVE YOUR ASS AND VOTE !!!!