Just stop !!!

Lets get a couple things straight that keep coming up over and over again with me...
First off, Diets do not work , its been proven they do not work , long term they dont work and eventually the weight comes back on and then some. http://www.webmd.com/diet/news/20070411/diets-dont-work-long-term There are some people like myself who have a medical reason for not being able to lose weight. Being obese is not just because your lazy, eat too much , or are a fat slob like some seem to think .... Its more than will power , its more than " just do this " believe it or not there ARE People who can not lose weight with out medical intervention such as surgery .

NOW Lets move on to my latest pet peeve. Shakes. The " miracle" shakes that everyone is selling , using, drinking and pushing ! First off its a diet , second off I have YET to find one that is 100% natural that I can drink. PLEASE stop telling me that "Your"Shake that you push and peddle is natural and has no artificial sweeteners and flavors in it when YOU DO NOT KNOW what your talking about. There are literally HUNDREDS of names for sweeteners . They fall under tons of names http://www.sharecare.com/question/what-common-brand-artificial-sweeteners, so please do not tell me YOUR shake does not have it in it when you dont know what your talking about . Because these affect my health and give me intense long lasting migraines you have no right to tell me they are not in there.

Another thing ... Dont tell me your shake will CURE my migraines ! If you want to drink these shakes on your own , great , I have no issue with that, what I have an issue with is you telling me what I want to hear in order for YOU to make money !!!

I would like to say this is not directed at any one particular person , since i have been over weight and had issues w/ my band I have had every person under the sun try and sell me" their" shake ! Just stop already !

Getting back on track and taking control

I have been in a pretty bad depression for a while. Lots of things going on in my life causing me to get down. So instead of doing my normal which is crawling in bed , sleeping for days and eating everything i can at night , I am doing what i can to NOT do that ! One thing I started was using things I have seen on Pinterest to organize my house. Normally I would let my house go , which only makes things worse. If your environment around you is a disaster you feel the same way !
So I started this blog Getting Organized in Texas as a form of therapy if you will.

Now that I feel like my house is nearly organized ( is anyones how ever 100% cleaned and organized ? LOL) I have decided to take back control of my weight. Ignoring it 10 yrs ago , not ever stepping on a scale for 10 yrs is what got me to 250 lbs ! I cant do that anymore.
I cant tell you what i weight right now because I have not stepped on a scale in months !

So I saw something similar to this on Pinterest but it was for a different reason ( to say why you love your husband , GAG LOL) so I adapted it for a weight loss chart . Its made out of a picture frame , so you can write on it w/ a dry erase marker ... I put it above my toilet so i had to see it everyday , no more putting it a side. The scale is right below it .

Hopefully this will help me some ?

Disgust, vent, rant , HELP !

I spent the afternoon trying to buy new clothes , shirts mainly . Why ? Because the ones I own now are too small and my fat ass cant fit into them . I bought 3 shirts and left the store in tears.
The only GOOD part about the day is Im still TOO BIG To wear Layne Bryant clothes. YAY Me right ? SCREW THAT ! I have not been this disgusted w/ myself in I cant remember how long.
HOW the HELL Did i get here again ? HOW DID I get to be nearly 200 pounds again ?
I cant tell y'all how sick I am . Why did my band fail ? Why did I keep gaining weight and WHY CANT I STOP SHOVING FOOD INTO MY FACE ? ??
I struggled so badly on the way home to NOT STOP somewhere and get something sweet, anything sweet to ease my pain . I have to do something I know . Im really going to try starting now. I have been in the process of getting my house organized for the first time ... well ever . I have a couple more rooms left .... This has to be done in order for me to get ME back in order .
I have for what ever reason been resisting weighting and measuring my food for a while now. And I think I am at that point where I need to now . I am going to have to go off ALL REFINED Sugar . NONE I just cant have it, I felt the best I have in YEARS after I had my band and didnt have refined carbs for years . I have been making meal plans for the week , I need to make HEALTHY meal plans for the week now . Sorry i am rambling, I spent all afternoon in tears . I cant do this anymore. I cant go and have a surgery again to fix my fat ass ! I have to try to keep from gaining even MORE WEIGHT . Its my fault this happened. If your reading this and you have a band, gastric, any WLS do yourself ONE FAVOR, MOVE , WORK OUT , get into SOME KIND OF ROUTINE, if you dont you will pay for it later if something happens to your surgery !

Question : What do you do when you want to eat at night ?

I have discovered my biggest problem , issue is eating at night , or at least being hungry at night ? Since my lap band no longer helps me.... What do some of you do to NOT eat at night ?
(PS Dont tell me NOT to eat LOL )

Less fat and Big Boobs !

That's right I am not messing around anymore ! I have about 40 lbs to get off , I am going in for a fill Monday , I am staying on top of my fills from this point on , getting in the gym and in 6-months to a year I AM GETTING A BOOB JOB !!! I am taking my life back again . Before it gets too far out of control again . I want/ need a breast augmentation, lift etc and I wont do it until my weight is off again . My younger sister just had one done ( one of hers is much smaller than the other ) and the are PHENOMENAL !!! ( the boobies ) So I am getting one and I AM Getting my weight back under control. I have waited this long out of laziness, i simply liked eating what i wanted !! So Monday I will post what I weight now ! And we will go from there !

Dont Ignore the Scale

This is going to be short as I am on my way to work , But I wanted to write this before I forgot.
I realized as I weighted myself this morning that for the last year I have been ignoring the scale.
When I have a fill and think or know I am losing weight the scale is my friend , but If i know or think I am gaining weight the scale is not and I ignore it .
THAT is a problem ... Why ? Because if I know I am gaining weight I NEED To be weighting myself just as much as when I am losing ( I weight myself daily after fills then I move to weekly ) . If I dont , that is how and when my weight gets out of control.

So I am here to suggest to you all dont ignore the scale . If you feel yourself gaining first go get a fill if you can but if you cant . Weight yourself so you can try to head the weight off before it gets un manageable again . I did the same thing when I was over weight, its honestly probably how I got to 250 lbs. Out of sight out of mind.

DONT IGNORE THE SCALE , even if you do not like the number on it , the scale is your friend.

Why didnt I move my A$$ more ? My ONE Regret w/ the Band !

A friend of mine contacted me today about lap band. She's having a consult next week for hers. So I was going back and re reading some of my old blog posts. I really needed to read some of them right now .
I go Thursday for my fill . Its been over a year since I have been unfilled and close to 40 pounds gained. WHY ?

I would say the ONE THING I Screwed up on and one thing i regret about the band is not moving more, not getting on a regular exercise routine from the get go . I KNEW if something were to happen to my band, it slipped, needed to be removed I would HAVE to have a plan to at least help keep the weight off. I did not though, I did not move , I did not work out . I made the mistake of thinking that being more active would be enough .

Guess what folks ? I am here to say I was wrong and here to show you 40lbs heavier wrong !

I will say this , I HOPE this fill can give me another shot at it .
I Plan to start over. I hope this is the beauty of the band. That I CAN Start over !
This is what I have always thought was the good part about the band. NOW I WILL SEE !