Time

I am in a little bit of a sappy mood today . Plus DH is not here and I cant sleep when he's not home. I realized some things after running into the ex boyfriend this weekend.I actually realized a few things.
1. Time goes by and people change. Sometimes for the good sometimes for the bad.
In my case it was the good mentally , physically it went from bad to good.
That relationship was not a good one even though he will always mean something to me it was not a good one and it was a good thing it ended. But it put me in such a bad place for many yrs .And today i was thinking about how normally if I had seen him , I would be screwed up for days, weeks . But its not like that anymore.
I have changed, Im in a good healthy, happy relationship, with a great husband and great boys.

2. which brings me to my next point. Nearly every day im in owe of my oldest son .
Again the ex brought this to my attention . But I was 16 when i had him , we have been through SO MUCH , we grew up together, he is SUCH A GREAT Kid , (So far knock on wood) that It amazes me nearly every day now how huge he is .
He's so big, yet still my baby . Sometimes i wonder how i got so luck w/ some of the shit I pulled over the yrs . Its a wonder I really did not screw him up .
I look at my youngest and think " I wonder what your going to be like at 16 "
He's 7 now .

3. My next point , idea what ever .
I realized after seeing the ex this weekend JUST HOW Far I have come in the last yr.
Mainly How happy I have become. I was so miserable over weight, I never would have been OUT somewhere at a festival . But I have gone to one of those things TWICE this month , One w/ my oldest son , he would have gone last night if he was feeling well.
But I would not have dragged my big ass out of the house long enough to be SEEN in public at a place like that. Let alone be confident enough to stand around all night and be next to an ex ANY EX . But i was, I had such a great time last night with my best friend and her husband, we laughed, cut up and just acted silly . Its just very , i dont know full filling ? I guess is the word ? I guess after all this what I have realized, is I have got my life back !!!
After almost 9 yrs of being obese , depressed, closed in , shut in , and un sociable I feel like i got my life back and I AM BACK !!!