I had the 2 pairs of pants that fit me in the washer and needed to go somewhere. So I was going through my drawers, trying on the shorts, capris etc I had from last year . THROWING them in the hall way yelling after each one that did not fit. Then I found a pair that DID FIT . Sweet huh ? NO , HELL NO , EFF NO ... I realized it was the one pair of pants I kept from BEFORE MY LAP BAND SURGERY . You have GOT TO be kidding me . FML ! Talk about full circle . Yeah that's right I am literally right back where i started !
I went around my house like a bad woman , I think my husband thought I had lost my mind, I actually did I think . Yelling screaming crying. The poor man didn't know what to do with me. All I told him was " GET ME THE FUCKING SURGERY NOW ! I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO GET IT , I"LL GO TO MEXICO !! " He just said " I'll do everything i can babe " I really do not want to tell him all my issues( thank god for this blog even if no one read its ) because i don't want to put a lot of pressure on him, he knows I need/want the surgery . But I don't want to tell him how difficult it is for me to eat , etc. But I could not hold it in today ! I had had enough .
Yesterday my parents came to take me out to eat. I had a nice meal, at the end , i had to go to the bathroom to throw it up . Its a waste !!! A waste of a night out , a waste of a meal and a waste of money !
I dont know what else to do , All I can do is wait i guess ?